No Jack not you (when/if you read this)
Jack is my new "single serving friend" well not so much single serving. Not so much friend. But he says he finds me interesting, and thats something. I hope its good interesting.
Talked to an old friend today that I haven't seen so that made me happy.
Went on the date... it was... well the baseball game wasn't bad. It was the Memphis Redbirds which are the triple a team for the Cardinals. There was fireworks after the game. Then we got to see some guy with a gun yell at another car. Bills brothers wife freaked out, and continued freaking out, loudly and annoyingly.
I have tried to afford Bill every opportunity to be date material, however there are somethings... while he did pay which was a nice touch, he didn't hold doors, pull out chairs, any of the impression things. The dog was cute though. He has a HUGE rotty, who was just sweet as sweet could be. His apartment which is larger than mine was cramped, crowded, dirty and decorated in NASCAR and John Deere. ::sighs:: I did try and I know I sound shallow and hateful, but I just can't help it. The way they all started freaking when they got lost though really clinched it for me. I am rarely miss calm and collected, but I was the prevailing voice of reason with this group. I felt like a babysitter, and I didn't drive so I didn't have any control over any of it. I still have a headache. After the game we went to eat which was another experience and a half... At least now I can go on with my life or what there is of it. One night I will go on by myself downtown I think... might be safer and now I know how NOT to go lol.
I know my aunt is going to expect me to be at at least sunday school in the morning and its almost 2 so I should get to sleep...I can be a good girl when I want to, or at least I can pull it off for at least a few hours... All those years of roleplaying paying off? Maybe that acting class I took so many years ago now?
Posted my last two new pieces on post poems today, but I think i am going to separate out some of the best pieces and try to put something together to really be published. I don't think it will sell, and it will wind up costing me in the long run, but it would be neat to say I've published a book of my own work...
Yay! Another old friend, although I think I am about to kill the people above me... so I may not be able to enjoy their company long. Its bad enough I couldn't get a parking spot in front of my building... but now they're loud... ::over dramatic sigh:: somehow I'll live.
::sighs:: had a wonderful image today in my head that I am not sure I could describe but it explained my vamp fantasies I guess... blood being pain made tangible... and someone tasting that blood, drinking it would be tasting my pain... and getting off on it... it was of course much more than that in my head, I will have to try to write it out properly, but it was a powerful image.
On that note, I am going to go to bed. Its been a rather long day, not that I did much except go to the game, but its been a long day nonetheless. I had another opportunity this weekend to um... get to know someone better, in person, but I just wasn't ready for that. I almost wish I had been able to, but thats just not me. Granted, while its not me, I also did let "him" influence that decision as well. Ok I can't say thats completely not me... but when I make my odd trips its because I think I am in some kind of emotionally committed state with the people I've gone to see... and in this case, I am sure there isn't any committal...(yes I know its the wrong word)
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