Ok, I'm trying my damndest to have a good day... I slept in, which I have some slight amount of guilt over, since I should have been at church... But I'll get over it. Been talking to some really positive people lately. Thats a good thing. Trying to create distance between me and the person that most of my entries have been about. And therein lies the problem. I never know when he is on because he has me blocked, so its always a surprise. Which is a pain in the ass within itself. Then when I treat him like a friend he blows a shitfit.
I am not supposed to feel for him, which I am ok with that.. But when I try to establish a friendship thats not good enough. I guess I am still supposed to be falling in worship ::gag:: So then he starts being hateful, and mean, and blaming everything on me, bringing up the past, albeit some of it is recent past, but still... And I am stuck with him being all about me and whatever until I go out and get a life. Well shit... I don't want to go out. I want to go on with my life, but I will do it in my own time. He's a fine one to talk. He doesn't exactly have a full and rich life either. In any case, I play along, let him think what he wants and slowly I will continue to make my distance. Life is full of changes. He needs to adjust to that too. I am not going to be his friggen lapdog.
There are some people that are worth waiting for, or working with. Some people that aren't, but I will continue to let things ride, to let things go the way he thinks they should... for now.
1 comment:
Jaz: Holy cow! Block him too, will you? Never let him get to you. He is manipulating you like a puppet on a string. He knows where your buttons are and you just open your shirt and let him push.
Dissappear from his view. Block him. Move on to other things. Take up a dangerous pursuit like skydiving, or rock climbing.
Buster
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