I want you to his me as hard as you can

LOL took the sn MarveI GirI for Brad, not to RP I dont rp stock characters, but he didn't want someone else getting it lol.  Went to sleep earlier, I am not used to being up now.  I may lay back down for a little bit anyway though.  Spoke tohim today, faught with him, we haven't argued in a long time like that... funny he can talk to me about his other girls, and about other stuff in his life, he can pick me apart, but when I ask him to be nice because I don't feel well for two days, I am asking him to not be himself...  I need to stop letting him affect me so much.  Kind of where the subject came from ... well that and the minor obsession with the movie. I have an opportunity to rp with a good group, and I am afraid to join because I know he will start pitching fits, plus I just don't have the time to really give a good rp.  I am supposed be finding a real life too, but I just can't get over my own self image issues to be able to be confident enough to go out and meet people.  I keep saying maybe after this and after that, but when it comes down to it I don't know if I can... and I am terrified of winding up alone, and at the same time I don't imagine myself any other way.  I am going to go for now... either nap a bit more or something...