Thursday, April 14, 2005
Moving on?
Going to have to do some deep thinking... really figure out what I need to do with that situation with that person. I had a really rough night at work emotionally. A man pleading with his critical wife to please not die yet because he isn't ready... Where is my love like that... I am so friggen tired of being alone... and falling for those who are never going to be what I want/need them to be. You would think that I would know by now. This isn't about physicality... this isn't about sex. I mean yeah its an added bonus, but thats not all of it. I am afraid that I am going to wind up alone. I am trying to work on some of the stuff that he and I talked about, about letting go of what hurts me, and the more that I do the more I think I might eventually have to let go of him too. I want a life, I don't want to miss a chance because I am holding my breath for the wrong person... and then I think, what if he's not the wrong person, he just doesn't see that I'm the right one for him yet.::sighs:: on a positive note, there is someone local that is promising... at least in these early stages of development. We shall see. Onward, right?
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Jaz: Here;s a Q for you--not about yourself.
I was interested in your remark abou tthe man who begged his wife not to go because HE wasn't ready. Is that fair to his wife? If she is dying, if she is "ready to go," shouldn't it be her choice? And shouldn't he be telling her that he loves her, but that she has done her part on earth and that she can let go if she wants to?
Your considered opinion please. Thanks!
Jack
No, its not really fair to his wife... Which since this was sudden onset was not really given much of a choice to decide whether she was ready or not. My immediate emotional response was to be moved by the depth of his emotion. Besides, you know how women are, anything can set some of us crying.
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